after the rain

hey i think i found that little bit of happiness i'd been searching for these past 23 years, and the best part is i found it without even trying. it just sort of snuck up on me and took me by surprise and i've been able to hold onto it for longer and longer and just today i realized i've been holding onto it for an entire week nonstop. And i think it's partly to do with the image of myself in my head that has slowly changed to reflect the person i really am and as it turns out, i'm happy with that image and not disappointed the way i always thought i would be if i let myself be myself completely. no more guilt or convincing myself that i can be better and no more caring what she thinks or they think or he will ever know--there's no need for convincing anymore and i carry that feeling around on my face smiling all the time now and not stopping even once.